The Start of a Mysterious Mystery by Sorensen Jessica

Author:Sorensen, Jessica [Sorensen, Jessica]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B0829B8MPP
Goodreads: 49147887
Publisher: Borrowed Hearts Publishing LLC
Published: 2019-12-02T08:00:00+00:00

Nine

West

I’m shaking so badly on the inside that I can barely walk. Somehow, though, I manage to move out of my room and into the living room. Then, before anyone notices me, I swing right then duck into the entryway that blocks me out of everyone’s view. Then I slump against the wall and take a few deep breaths.

Air in, air out, West. Calm the hell down.

But I can’t seem to get myself settled.

Lex touched my scars. Ran her fingers along the truths. No one has ever seen those truths. Even the woman I’ve slept with. Not because they didn’t see them. They just didn’t care. But Lex seemed to care. She saw. Saw what I’ve spent years keeping buried behind a façade of jokes and smiles.

Humor is my defense mechanism. Always has been. To hide the pain of what he does to me. Of my father’s hatred for me. And my mother’s ability to ignore it. And, for the most part, humor has worked for me, has kept all those secrets hidden. But Lex … she sees things differently, notices the darker side of life. I hate that she does. Hate that she’s been in so much pain that she knows what the darkness feels like.

I could almost taste it in the burning of our lips.

Our lips …

We kissed again …

And it was …

Everything.

But it also can’t be anything right now. Not when she’s still hurting over Blaine, although she’ll never admit it.

I want her to, though.

Desperately.

Too desperately probably.

I’m becoming desperate.

Drowning even more, but for different reasons now.

I take a few more breaths, trying to pull myself together.

Never has a girl affected me like this before. But never has a girl saw me before, either. No one has, and it’s … complicated to deal with.

And as I leave the entryway, appearing composed, I’m still not certain if I dealt with it or just buried it down inside of me.

When I enter the living room, Ellis offers me a nice distraction, handing me the bong and a lighter as I walk in.

“I thought you were in your room,” he says as I take a hit, letting the smoke saturate my lungs.

Maybe I shouldn’t be taking a hit right now, but it makes me feel better. Well, calmly oblivious for a moment.

“I was.” I hand the bong and lighter back to him. “I had to grab something out of my car,” I lie.

“Where’s Alexis?” Holden asks as he texts someone on his phone.

Harlow, the girl sitting beside him, has passed the fuck out and is curled up in a ball on the sofa. She hangs out here a lot; I think mostly to score drugs, but she hooks up with Holden sometimes—I think so she can score drugs.

“In my room.” I sink down on a leather sofa covered in holes and tears.

He glances up at me. “She’s pretty. I get why you’re so obsessed with her.”

I hate that he clearly noticed her. That he thinks she’s pretty. That he noticed she was.

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